Love

Dear God

What does it take for a woman to be loved by her man without being cheated on?

Are there still men out there who could love one woman without cheating in the end? What has this world got into. I bet there are women out there who'd rather be a nun and be happy having no man interfere with her life. I've watched movies, heard stories, read blogs & heard first hand from women that get hurt because of a guy who "cheats" on them. A guy whom they've loved so much, given everything they had and still, got cheated on the end of everything.

It's win it of loose it. Is love a game of life that all should be a part of? Every woman taking that risk of falling in love? Is this what the world offers to us, women, in these days?

Yes.

That's what the world offers. The risk of getting left behind when you've given everything to the one you love. Now I see.. I think that's the point! That's the reason why most women are being cheated on! It's because they've given everything.

That's what the world tells us. Give it all and he will never ever leave you. What kind of crap is that. Tell me a good relationship that ended well when a woman gave everything for his man before marriage. Tell me if his man was ever satisfied. Tell me if they had a good marriage later on.

Barely.

You barely find good marriages like that and i bet those good marriages were given so much help and grace from the people they love. It took time for their marriage to be good.

That's the kind of love that the world offers. There's so much doubt, there's so much fear, risk in getting in a relationship! Especially for women! No wonder there are so many bitter women out there, to the point that some of them pass on the pain they've got by cheating on men.

Women who cheat has been hurt at first, and I mean HURT.

Honestly speaking, I am scared myself, i sometimes think that i couldn't take that risk. I don't want to fall for a guy and in the end he'd leave me behind. I don't want to be cheated on. I want to love a man and support him, cook for him, hold his hand when he can't tell me what's wrong. I want to be there for him, but if he cheats on me, i don't think i could ever trust another man ever again. Yes. I am fragile. I admit that.

I'm turning twenty soon, I'm out of the Teen years. Love is more riskier than ever. It's a game that the world participates in. I am scared honestly. I mean hey, it's okay if i get hurt a long the way with the process of love, but being left behind? I think i cannot take that. I am afraid, I think I can't take that risk.

And that's the beauty of having God. : ) He's writing my love story and I'm not. <3

Thank you :)

Lots Love,
Shiriel

Prom

Dear God

I just realized that I have never been in a real prom. I mean i had one during my high school, but the teachers paired us up. It was nice i think, but can't really recall it. But I did remember one dance, and that's all I remember. : )

Other than that, I was never asked by a certain guy to a prom. I wonder how that would have felt. I don't know why, but it means so much to me. Maybe coz ever since i was a kid I've dreamt of being asked to a prom. In my whole high school life, i think that's one thing that I missed that i could never let go until now... I couldn't accept it. :< I've been saying "No no, it's alright" or I'd try and cover it up by the good things that happened in my life... But still there's pain in my heart :(

God I don't know why I can't get over this thing. I'm turning twenty soon, why can't i still let go of this childhood dream when high school is already over?

God... Will i still be asked? I wonder.

Someday. It's either I will be asked or I would hold a party for those young women out there who missed their prom like me and make a night memorable for them ❤

I pray that this childhood dream of mine, would be answered someday in Your way. :)

LOve Lots!
Shiriel