Friendship

God. . thank you for the great friendship, you've given me. . you do hear whispered prayers. :)

I woke up, excited to spend time with my best friend.

I waited till the time that he actually arrived.

I made him buy cute pails, for us to place our dreams in. :)

Mine is pink and his is green, with matching pens i bought. :)

But before everything else, he decided to take a walk.

A walk around our village, which is something i don't do.

We walked and i loved every minute of it,

Walking like little kids, around our village, late in the afternoon. :)

It was sweet, it was relaxing, it's something i missed doing.

Just walking and stopping from time to time.

Talking about our lives and some other things.

It felt soo good and warm and simple, yet special. :)

When we got back to our house, we sat for awhile,

to play around with the dogs and just rest.

When we were about to write our dreams for our pails,

i received a call, that changed all our plans for the night.

Both of us got sad coz i had to go and leave.

He said it was okay, but i knew it was not.

It was a special day, intended just for us.

It got ruined and blasted our moods down.

When we parted ways, we knew something was wrong.

And yes, something was wrong indeed.

When we got to talk in the evening after i got back,

We both just shot ourselves with painful words and such.

What seemed to be a happy day for both of us,

ended up to be the worst. SO many misunderstanding.

So many judgments and problems.

We ended up with hurting words, as sad way to end the day.

Tears fell down like crazy, drowning on my own thoughts,

the thoughts of depression crumbled in like crazy.

But there is a better tomorrow, that God has promised.

I knew that was glued in my heart, without me thinking about it.

Upon waking up, both thought it was okay,

but both ended in arguments that was a blessing in disguise.

An argument that hurt us both, but strengthened our bond more.

Never expected that its God's way of bringing us together, stronger.

God has not failed me not my best friend at all,

He made our bond stronger and deeper.

There are friendships that deserves a second chance,

a second chance to be better and stronger. :)

I'm just happy that no matter how unstable of an artist I am,

I have a stable best friend who doesn't let go that fast.

No matter how i drive him away, he comes back,

Holding the strength of God with him. :)

Now we're closer that yesterday. More better than before.

We'll be best friends for sure till God desires us to be.

I guess this is how great friendships are build up,

broken into pieces to build a better masterpiece. :)

Letting go of the past and focusing on what we have now.

Changing the norm and being proud to be different.

"Its so easy to doubt people, to not believe in them,

but it takes lots of sacrifices to trust people sincerely"

Me and my best friend might fight a lot like crazy,

but that's only the beginning of the story.

Breaking our outer cores, to reveal the inner ones.

Accepting our differences to make the bond stronger :D

i love you God, and thank you for the gift of friendship :D

Love

Dear God

What does it take for a woman to be loved by her man without being cheated on?

Are there still men out there who could love one woman without cheating in the end? What has this world got into. I bet there are women out there who'd rather be a nun and be happy having no man interfere with her life. I've watched movies, heard stories, read blogs & heard first hand from women that get hurt because of a guy who "cheats" on them. A guy whom they've loved so much, given everything they had and still, got cheated on the end of everything.

It's win it of loose it. Is love a game of life that all should be a part of? Every woman taking that risk of falling in love? Is this what the world offers to us, women, in these days?

Yes.

That's what the world offers. The risk of getting left behind when you've given everything to the one you love. Now I see.. I think that's the point! That's the reason why most women are being cheated on! It's because they've given everything.

That's what the world tells us. Give it all and he will never ever leave you. What kind of crap is that. Tell me a good relationship that ended well when a woman gave everything for his man before marriage. Tell me if his man was ever satisfied. Tell me if they had a good marriage later on.

Barely.

You barely find good marriages like that and i bet those good marriages were given so much help and grace from the people they love. It took time for their marriage to be good.

That's the kind of love that the world offers. There's so much doubt, there's so much fear, risk in getting in a relationship! Especially for women! No wonder there are so many bitter women out there, to the point that some of them pass on the pain they've got by cheating on men.

Women who cheat has been hurt at first, and I mean HURT.

Honestly speaking, I am scared myself, i sometimes think that i couldn't take that risk. I don't want to fall for a guy and in the end he'd leave me behind. I don't want to be cheated on. I want to love a man and support him, cook for him, hold his hand when he can't tell me what's wrong. I want to be there for him, but if he cheats on me, i don't think i could ever trust another man ever again. Yes. I am fragile. I admit that.

I'm turning twenty soon, I'm out of the Teen years. Love is more riskier than ever. It's a game that the world participates in. I am scared honestly. I mean hey, it's okay if i get hurt a long the way with the process of love, but being left behind? I think i cannot take that. I am afraid, I think I can't take that risk.

And that's the beauty of having God. : ) He's writing my love story and I'm not. <3

Thank you :)

Lots Love,
Shiriel

Prom

Dear God

I just realized that I have never been in a real prom. I mean i had one during my high school, but the teachers paired us up. It was nice i think, but can't really recall it. But I did remember one dance, and that's all I remember. : )

Other than that, I was never asked by a certain guy to a prom. I wonder how that would have felt. I don't know why, but it means so much to me. Maybe coz ever since i was a kid I've dreamt of being asked to a prom. In my whole high school life, i think that's one thing that I missed that i could never let go until now... I couldn't accept it. :< I've been saying "No no, it's alright" or I'd try and cover it up by the good things that happened in my life... But still there's pain in my heart :(

God I don't know why I can't get over this thing. I'm turning twenty soon, why can't i still let go of this childhood dream when high school is already over?

God... Will i still be asked? I wonder.

Someday. It's either I will be asked or I would hold a party for those young women out there who missed their prom like me and make a night memorable for them ❤

I pray that this childhood dream of mine, would be answered someday in Your way. :)

LOve Lots!
Shiriel