Prayer...

Dear heavenly Father,

I have been so addicted to buying Manga's that i have no money anymore...please i ask you to help me stop this addiction..but how? i am really asking for your help...and i know you would...actually there's one anime series that i would love to have..its entitled "Girl got Game" i want to buy the whole set, but then i have no money at all...:( could you please help me get over my addiction? thank you so much..:D

I have a prayer request...could you please give me the whole set of 'Girl got game'? for this Christmas?:D eheh thanks so much!:D and could you please help my dad with his works? i can see that he's having problems...and could you please not make it rain on sunday? coz we're going to epol! WAHOO!hehe and lastly, could you help my friends here get to know You? coz they really need you...thank you so much for this day, for making me feel pretty and making me win, thank you for molding me the way i am now, thank you for inspiring me to finish my manga, thank you for helping me, and thank you for always making me smile despite the hardship of life...:D luv ya!

In Jesus name I pray, Amen...:D

Wee!

I won best costume in school for our UN day! i represented Mexico! ^.~ God is so good!=3

Here are some pictures =3




















the solo ones are taken from my room hehe..xD i had fun with the webcam...well its because its my first time to be in curls!xD hehe..anyhoo! i had fun today! especially that God made me feel pretty today...=3.. i knda look like a mexican huh?..=p





















Hehe well that's it! so much for fun..xD hehe now back to anime drawing! Wee!=3...

Im hungry..v.v... so ima guna go down and eat but before that...

Dear Jesus,

Thank you so much!!!!!!!!! you don't know how happy i am to be able to win and to be able to look pretty...=3...thank you so much that you made me this way...your really are an awesome artist! :D

Love,
Shiriel

Dear Jesus,

You know what? once again today i heard the story of Rachel Joy Scott... and i somehow never got bored listening to it... ^^ While listening to the story i knew you were right beside me... whispering, "You can be like that..." for some reason i rejected it in my mind....coz i don't want to be someone else... but then i missed your very point... you said I could be like that, you never said, I could be like Rachel... So i just realized now you very point...

But before that... everytime i listen to Rachel's story, you touch my heart, inspire me...but this time...it felt differently... its like this time...you directly talked to my very heart... Several times did i hear this story of Rachel's... and several times have You touched my heart... and several times did you say "You can be like that"... and once, which is today, i finally listened...

You said, "You can be like that" meaning i can also take my stand and stand up for you, Jesus. You can touch millions of lives through my voice and through my hands... I am willing to use them for you, and i am actually honored to be of service to you... :)

YOu can use my voice, to sing through me and touch the lives of your children. You can use my hand to draw a Manga that will touch millions of lives.

Rachel Joy Scott left her handprints on a wall saying "This is Rachel Joy Scott's hands and it will touch millions of lives" well, mine is different... I will make a Manga and it will touch millions of lives... Seedz 0f Secret will be a manga inspired by your glory, mercy and love. Seedz 0f Secret will change the hearts of teenagers and bring them back to you and stand up for you. Seedz 0f Secret will be your story written by my hands... and i am glad and tahnkful for using my hands that were once worthless, but is now worthy because of You.

I can feel that you are telling me to start on my manga already... and stop getting jealous of other people's arts or stories, coz i have my own, which is directly used by You...:D thank you so much Jesus, and do not worry... I will finish my Manga for your Glory, that's a promise from your very Best friend... named SHiriel... ^.~

Failure

Today i was in our school, and we had this spiritual thing day... and it was all about success..

Remember yesterday? i talked about Fruits Basket and my Manga...

I compared them...to be honest i could never level up with Fruits Basket for the reason that i can go higher..:D feeling proud ei? not really...more of being dedicated and faithful.

I shall make my manga and publish it no matter what people think... even though it may seem similar with Fruits Basket, my story is still unique in my own special way.

My story is God's story...:3 starting today i will draw my characters and write stories even though they're not in order..xD hehe... once i get home i will draw all my characters..and maybe even write some stories...:3

Hmmm... i've finished three of my characters already...12 more to go..v.v.. HA! i can do it!

Actually i asked help from my dad coz i told him 'i'm not getting anywhere with my manga..' and he said its because i'm such a perfectionist... He said in this world nothing is perfect... and if i tend to be a perfectionist at my rough drafts then surely i will not finish anything...my dad said i shoudl be a perfectionist when i edit my manga...:3 and he's right... ^.~

I shall post some of the aprts of my story here sometime...i know..:D

ANyhoo! i'd be late for school! bai bai!:D

Got it!

I'm so happy today! i finally got what style of anime manga i should use! and its...

The classical manga style!!xD not the chibi version one..hehe...

I know it isn't that cute but hey im comfortable with this art and its pretty cute...cute enough to attract readers i guess ^^u...anyway! i shall post some of my arts tomorrow...

right now i have to draw more and more and MORE! and not to mention, i have to write my chapter one finale soon...v.v.. i've been writing the chapter one of my story for 5 yrs now..v.v.. i already made 12 chapter one's...xD hehe but this time i'll proceed to chapter 2...i will and i can!*thumbs up*

ANyway! gotza draw draw draw now! :D seee yaaa!!!!!

Anime...

Once again i have read the ever inspiring story of Fruits Basket...

For some reason every time i read this story, it gives an impact to me...i don't know why...maybe that's why it became the 1st hit manga in america..

This story is full of deep thoughts that could really help teenagers...and give impact to their lives...honestly? it can really do..

Fruits Basket is a very nice and beautiful story that the writer itself is such a deep thinker that it gives impact to the readers...i want to finish the story...but then it hurts me even more as i come to read it...

WEird ei? why would i get hurt with simply just reading a comic book...you know why i'm so hurt?...coz im jealous...im so jealous that the writer got the same idea as i did...

Even before i have read fruits basket, the idea was already in my mind...I thought it'll make a great story coz its main goal is to help teenagers and touch their lives...but then...Fruits Basket...i lost...

Even if i try and publish my manga someday...wont the reader's say, "isn't this just like Fruits Basket?, all filipino's are the same getting the ideas from other movies or other stories..."

Would it hurt if smeone said that to you?... I can't even compromise anymore...

My heart is so confused right now...hurt...sad...and in realy pain... The story that i've been trying to write, i've been trying to finish has been already finished by soemone else...my idea my original idea is seen as only 'copied'... The title of my Story "seeds of seceret" is copied... no matter how many times i compromise with other people...tehy'd only see my story as 'copied'...

Now question drift to my mind if i should still continue my story...or should i stop it?...

THe only reason why i became so addicted to anime is because, when i was small, i only saw bad animes...i learned that anime is really bad and my classmates would say that i should stolp watching anime coz im a pastor's kid...i should stop...but then i couldn't... so ever since that day i promised myself that i will become a great artist someday and draw the best anime ever and write an anime story that is good, that it could touch the lives of other people... Ever since that day, i loved anime, till this day...

People tried asking me to stop my addiction, and sme even asked why i love anime so much... but i never told anyone my real reason of loving anime..but for some reason i feel that i just have to blurt it out...i know no one will read this blog of mine...but then..someday...this will be of use of something..

RIght now my mind is so confused, there are so many things i want to say, share, tell...but then sometimes, words can't be said...

Anime basically, is not my life...God is my life... I maybe be an anime addict..but i became an anime addict because of God... I wanted to write, i Christian Anime Manga...that'll bring teenagers to God... i want to be the first to write such manga...

A manga that'll make people smile, a manga that'll teach teenagers what true happiness really means... a Manga that'll show who Jesus is...

Now that i've blurted it all out...i juts realized soemthing...

Fruits Basket could've taken the idea from me...but it can never tell me to stop reaching my dream... I will still continue my manga, my story making, i will do my best to give it all and publish it all in two years time...

When i turn 18, Seeds of Secret will be a hit and will be read by alot of people, and it will change the lives of teenagers...This story is not copied, not stolen, not even mine...coz this story is God's story... I will finish this manga, no one can stop me... i give more focus on my manga now..it means less tardiness, but more work...

Do you ever wonder where i get such courage to say that this Manga is going to be a hit? Well let's just say its because, the Creator of All things, is beside me and HE will help me...

The main goal of this Manga...is to bring more people to Jesus...

Seeds Of Secret...never forget it, coz in 2 yrs time it'll be palced in your very hands...:-)

FInale

I've realized that i've been changing my blogspot for a while now...xD hehe this will be my final journal, coz i accidentally did a huge mistake on my rpevious one..taht's why i have to make a new one...and this time this will be final, even the Template..i love it! its so serene! i thought that i should make my own template but then it'll take me a lot of time to make a new one...so here! This is perfect for me! i'll upload some arts soon...like after 10 mins? haha anyway! i hope this people will visit my journal! btw..Seeds of secret is my future manga ^.~ waitr for it!:D